Rufus –
This is a love letter to you. I remember the first time I saw you. I literally thought there is my baby. You were 4 Yrs old at the time. Been badly abused and thrown away like trash to fend for yourself. You were afraid of everything from noise to people. But we worked thru it. You became trusting of people, noise and knew no one would hurt you ever again. You adopted yourself a brother who you shared everything with until he passed away. Then you adopted your sister until she passed away. You took on a puppy who instead of hating like everyone would of assumed since he was younger a brat. You took him under your paw and taught him everything he knows. Always reminding him on nights when he has nightmares and screams out. That he is safe you’re there and got his back. You’ve seen me at my worst after my medical scares or nights where I would wake up so freaked out that I couldn’t see straight. Crying my eyes out and trying to make it day light you sat by me. Making sure I was good. I see your age finally catching up nights where you sleep so hard I can imagine you just letting go and not waking up. I hope that is how you go. Days like today where you can’t keep anything down and you’re confused and trying hard to catch your breath. Were you just want to be on moms lap safe and sound and cuddle and kisses… I see the clock ticking and every day I pray you will wake up. You take the moment in the morning laying in the sun while I drink my coffee. Every couple of minutes looking at me making sure I’m still there. My guardian angel, my heart and my soul. I know soon that this letter will be a testament of your life. I love you sweet little one and I know right now. I will enjoy the cuddles the kisses and these quiet moments to reflect. Since soon they will only be a memory…
